Tanni Rainbow is One!!!

She Tanni Rainbow turned one on the 29th. We had a small party for her. She loves dinosaurs, so we brought along her favorite longneck.

In her first year of life, oh she has amazed me and scared me. It wasn't soon after she came home that she ended up at the children's hospital. She came home soon after thanks so the lights.

She walked too early and wants to be a big girl like Maggie Rae. 

She loves her big brother the best and her daddy. Poor girl, they are so much alike.

 

She likes watching the fire and playing with blocks. She likes when I wear her on my back. She's feisty and so punk rock that she growls! She likes to eat bananas and avocados. She likes to be barefoot and pull hair. 

When she dances to Snoop Dog, I silently pray I never hear of her dropping it like its hot. She watches Dr. Who with her siblings, so maybe she'll be the first female time lord. 

She is healthy and has radar love for my breasts. They hear her cries miles awY and get weary. She likes to shake her head, I imagine she is in disbelief at some of the stuff going on around here as I am.

She's a puppy squeezer and cat chaser. When she's older...I imagine she will be just as amazing and feisty.

Full Lives

We are leading full lives. Nothing we can not handle.
Joaquin has an MRI on Tuesday. It's been awhile.
Dexter has been studying for the CHSEE. Yes, I know he in only 13. He just rocks like that.
Jimmys work may strike, right now the contact is extended.

Sometimes I need to breathe, so I lay down and nurse the baby while we listen to some NPR Podcast or Catholic Stuff You Should Know. Lost of podcasts get played at home, and an NPR station in the van.

I am shamelessly still trying to get my room clean.

Waylon got a haircut today. He was mostly asleep through it and cried. Poor kids was confused and now he is happy.

Tanni is so long. This girl need to slow down.

That is all

Love,

Momma

5 Weeks

It's been a pretty good five weeks. Whole I don't feel sleep deprived, I do feel tired. Nothing unmanageable. Tanni is growing pretty good and makes us all smile. I had to put saline spray in her stuff nose this morning. She didn't like it at first but, now she's happy.

You know, when your kids are infants you have all kinds of plans for them. Greatness and happiness. Over the years I've learned that both greatness and happiness comes in different forms. It's displayed differently and it's appreciated on levels I would never have dreamed of.

I do wonder though, what will each kid offer the world around them. What will their happiness be, what will their greatness be? Only time will tell...


Love
Momma

Fussy Pants

Tanni has been a total fussy pants today. I don't think she was in a good mood or she just wanted to snuggle. Probably just wanted to snuggle. Who wouldn't want to snuggle with me in bed all day? Okay, maybe just her.

I had a couple cups of hot tea this morning. Did a morning meditation and thought how I could be a better person today. I prayed for myself and those around me. By nature I am kind of aggressive and pessimistic. Well, kind if is sugar coating it. I see those traits in some if my kids and I want to model different behaviors. I don't want my kids to want to abandon me when they come of age. In my heart I'd like to think I'd get phone calls and letters. Not just on holidays. Visits and pictures if grandkids. I can only hope.
Until the future shows itself, I've got to work on myself and my kids.

Love
Momma

Catch Up

Let's hope I can blog daily for the last few days of the year. It's been hectic and I was trying to be mellow. Keep calm and all that.
Hezzie had more fluid taken from his swollen area and stitches out! He did well and had no dizziness this time! Woot! Two nurses gave him toys. He came home with a Mr. Potato Head and some mini superheroes. Very cool. That hospital will make you cry from the love.
Christmas was great! The kids were blessed by my mom, sister and Jimmy's parents and grandparents. We got then a few things. My friend Tanni in Texas got Maggie an American Girl doll and we got one second hand from another friend. Noe she can play with a friend when she has one over. She's making them things, the dolls.
Tanni, the baby, seems a bit colicky. Been trying to work with that. Meaning not lose my sanity. She nurses a lot, so that's good. I just love every bit if her. She's pretty awesome. The kids don't like when she cries, that's sweet.
That's all for now.
Love,
Momma

Rub My Eyes

It feels like the things that have transpired recently are from someone elses life. Chaotic and beautiful all at the same time. Hezekiah was readmitted back into Loma Linda Childrens Hospital on Wednesday evening. His incision was leaking cerebral fluid.
The next morning I had my OB appointive and was in the early stages of labor. I was advised to go to the hospital as soon as I could. I was at a five and 85% effaced. I went and made some arrangements first. My mom met me at the childrens hospital so that Jimmy could come to the birth. When I arrived at Hezzies room he had just had some fluid removed via some syringes that nearly made me faint. Before my mom arrived we took Hezzie to see Santa in the lobby and do some fun things.
We arrived around 12:30-1 at Pass Hospital and my labor was going better. At 5:51 my water was broken. At 6:45 little baby Tanni was born. I don't think I even pushed. I was sitting up and the nurse was rubbing my lower back. I was in AA panic and swore I was cussing the nurses out. Jimmy says that wasn't true. I told the nurse the baby was coming laid back and breathed through about three big contractions....she was out and the nurse caught her one handed before my OB could get there. He was just down the hall, it was that fast.
Hezzie came home Friday, the baby and I came home Saturday. I have to say I'm not doing well with the amount of stitches I have. I'm not enjoying that discomfort. Just hoping it doesn't linger.
I found out Jimmys dear friend passed the day Tanni was born. It's like his padding made room for Tanni on earth and now he's with his own children. RIP Chris.
We have a post op for Hezzie tomorrow. I hope it's better news. I just want to rub my eyes and wake up...and have it be rainbows and unicorns everyday. Well, maybe not, because I probably would take wonderful things for granted.

Love
Momma